Confession

I am embarassed to say how old I was before I was straight on which finger was the forefinger.

Let's just say I may or may not have been over the age of 25 before I had that figured out. (In my defense, in childhood it IS almost exclusively called "the pointer" or "the index finger". Forefinger?! Forefinger?! Shouldn't that be your ring finger? That is the fourth finger...fourfinger...forefinger. The confusion well into adulthood seems totally justified. Totally.)

There have been several (and I mean several) other "basic" bits of knowledge that I have failed to pick up on until well beyond one might believe.

Has anyone else been the victim of delayed enlightenment? I'm curious to know what you didn't know you didn't know...before you knew it.

(Seriously...forefinger? So confusing...)

Another reason to love home

My parents have a vat of M&Ms in the hutch in their kitchen.

I don't even really like M&Ms (unless they're peanut butter M&Ms....then that's another story) and rarely do I actually indulge in said vat of said M&Ms.

But, there's just something AWEsome about the fact that you could use a ladle to scoop out M&Ms...if you wanted to. And for the record, no such vat existed while I was growing up. This vessel of M&Ms showed up about the time my parents had their first grandchildren...

But, so long as we're on the subject, here are other things I think my parents should have vats of in their kitchen:

-the creme inside Krispy Kreme glazed creme-filled doughnuts

-the chocolate peanut butter frosting from Babycakes (in Kansas City)

-Red Robin's Campfire sauce

-my Dad's homemade fudge (but not the maraschino cherry fudge....gross...)

-almond and/or cashew roca

-rolls and cinnamon butter from Texas Roadhouse

What would you put in the vat?

Go Team Go

Every New Year's Eve, there is an annual cutthroat hockey matchup celebrating the bitter rivalry between the Tri-City Americans and the Spokane Chiefs. While I am not a diehard fan for either team (I've spent about the same amount of years living in both cities), I do enjoy watching me some good hockey. Last New Year's Eve, some friends and I wanted to attend the aforementioned festive New Year's Eve event, but the tickets were sold out (boo...hiss.).

Long about October of this year, I woke up thinking, "I want to go to the hockey game in the Tri-Cities on New Year's Eve." And, not to worry, we got tickets. (phew...)

I went with my friend Kendra.

We found our seats, looked around in dismay, checked with the guy in the row behind us (he and his wife were 25-year season ticket holders), looked around in dismay again and sat down. Our seats, Section B-Row 3-Seats 5 and 6, were directly behind the Americans' bench. Directly behind. I have only watched hockey games from crazy nosebleed seats. I have never sat near the ice and have never sat near the team. This is what I learned whilst sitting there:

1. Hockey players swear a lot. While this shouldn't surprise me, I suppose, it did get old. Sheesh, be a little more creative yeah?

2. Those hockey guys are babies. Seriously, the vast majority are valiantly trying to suggest the peach fuzz clinging to their upper lip and chin is bonafide facial hair. It's not. I assure you, it's not.

3. For real, there were a lot of potty mouths on the team. Although, thanks to the indestructo plexiglass, we couldn't really hear it. But, as a professional-grade lipreader, I knew what they were saying and did wonder if they kissed their mothers with those mouths.

4. The backup goalie has a bum deal. I don't even remember his name. The poor guy got all suited up for the game (who knows how much that gear weighs) and he stood there at the door of the box and opened it for the players coming off of the ice. The whole game. Open the door, shut the door, open the door, shut the door. He practices with the team, does the drills, suits up, and is relegated to the job of door opener for the entire game.

5. I am a pansy. One guy, this guy, Lazo,somehow got injured and was gushing blood out of his chin and kept playing. It wasn't until the blood was dripping all over his jersey that they pulled him out, took him to the locker room, butterfly bandaged him up and then sent him back out on the ice. I have never gushed blood out of my chin, but I'm pretty sure if I did the rest of my day would include lazing around on the couch while sipping a smoothie. It would not include heading back out into an icy foray to be pummeled again, and again, and again. I'm still trying to decide if I find his courage admirable, or just plain stupid.

6. Watching the fans is just as fun as watching the players which is just as fun as watching the game (maybe more fun....). There we were before the game enjoying the luck of our seats when a rowdy man came down the aisle bellowing that we were in the wrong seats. Huh? After showing him our tickets ("That's no proof! You can't prove it!"), talking in a soothing, calm voice ("aazhhhhh, aazzhhhhh, daddy be home soon."), and with the additional cajoling of the 25-year-season-ticket holders, he conceded that we were not the devil's spawn sent to take his seat and sat himself down next to Kendra. Ray, it was apparent at 'hello', had some cognitive disadvantages.

So, we watched the game with Ray. He was a wealth of information. He chatted it up with the assistant coaches and water boys throughout the game which is how we got the updates on the player who was hit in the ear with the hockey puck ("He's laying down because he's really dizzy still!"). He yelled with appropriate fan passion when he disapproved of a call (his favorite phrase being, "What game are you watching?!"). At the end of each period, he jumped up out of his seat and declared, "It's walking around time! I love walking around time!" Although we were slightly concerned when he meandered back up to the aisle at the beginning of the third period with a hard lemonade (Should cognitively impaired individuals ingest substances that would further impair their cognition? A deeply philosophical moral dilemma...), Ray turned out to be a fun addition to the game-watching. Although, Kendra found his staring a little creepy.

Happy New Year, everyone.

Home

Home, home, home. How I love home.

It's been a lovely visit home.

This holiday, we have put together two jigsaw puzzles. We busted out the first one the night after I arrived. It was a 1000-piece conglomeration of Hershey's products. We started at 9:00 Saturday night with the intention of having it available to work on it piecemeal-like for then next few days. We finished it five hours later at 2 a.m.

That out of our system, we meandered our way through the second puzzle for the next week and a half and got to reap the benefits of puzzle-putting-together.

The conversation meandered from one unrelated topic to another as we sat there trying to put together the figures.

We celebrated with each other when someone finally found the piece with the fox's eye.

As my sister rifled through the remaining pieces in the box, she kept saying with unvaried enthusiasm, "Ooh, now this looks like something." And I would remind her, "mmhmm, I bet it is something."

We did the puzzle at the kitchen table which was perfectly suited for stopping for a break to peel an orange or grab a handful of nuts to munch on ("Hey, can I have one?").

The best part of puzzle-putting together is just the being together doing it. Hunting for a piece with a white tip while your sister/mom/brother/dad nearby hunts for their piece. I like being there at the old, worn-out kitchen table talking, or not talking. We don't have to talk to say, "Hey, I like this. This being here with you." We just know.

A follow-up

So, I finished it. Gone With the Wind. What a great read! After the initial shock of the juxtaposition between integration and the antithesis of integration (plantations, slavery, and racial slurs, oh my), the story was delightful. And I think what I enjoyed about it more than anything else is that I had the opportunity to enjoy an iconic story with no idea how it ended. Sure, Gone With the Wind was immortalized by Vivien Leigh and Clark Gable in the 30's, and sure there are countless pop culture references to this epic novel (now I can understand and appreciate the hilarity behind Carol Burnett's use of curtains for elegant eveningwear), but somehow, against all odds, I maintained innocence in regard to Scarlett O'hara's outcome.

I was reminded how fantastically fun it is to read a well-written, well-known, well-crafted story and enjoy the unraveling and discovery of the characters a page at a time.

I feel so sad for the generation of kiddos that will never experience the magic of reading Harry Potter...discovering the loyalties of the characters from one book to another. Movies hand it to you...in an hour and a half to two hours.

Books slow me down. They remind me that taking time to discover is okay. It took me two months and a smidgeon to finish Gone With the Wind (I'm in school, you know...). I had to waylay the discovery of the end for two months (and a smidgeon).

It was way worth it. :-)

Likening the Scriptures

You know that story from the Old Testament about the widow who is gathering sticks for the fire that will prepare her last meal when the prophet Elijah moseys up? No? Basically, there is a famine in the land, the woman has no food left and she is destitute. The prophet approaches her (the Lord has directed him there) and asks for some water. On her way to get the water, he calls again and asks for some bread as well. She informs him the only food she has is a handful of meal and a little oil and she is preparing it for her and her son to eat before they die.

It's a terribly sad situation.

(painting by Elspeth Young)

And then Elijah tells her not to fear and carry on with her plans, but to give make him a cake with the remaining meal and oil first. Before she and her son eat. I've wondered if Elijah agonized over this direction. Did he feel guilty about making such a bold request? It seems awfully chauvenistic (but just wait, the story has a really cool ending). He goes on to explain that if she does this, she won't run out of meal or oil until the Lord sends rain again.

So, she does it. And she and her house eat for many days thereafter, "And the barrel of meal wasted not, neither did the cruse of oil fail, according to the word of the Lord." (1 Kings 17:16)

She did what the Prophet asked, and look at the incredible blessing that resulted. It's a powerful lesson.

While I don't have a holy bucket of meal nor a sacred vat of oil through which the Lord pours out his mercies, he has blessed me in other ways. For example, I've been using the same deodorant for upwards of 6 months now.

Yes, I apply (and sometimes reapply) on a daily basis. And yet, the deodorant wastes not neither does it's cruse of antiperspirant fail me. This occurred to me yesterday morning when, the deodorant I've been expecting to use up for several months now keeps deodorizing day after day after day. And I thought, "I'm having a widow of Zarapheth experience!" No, a prophet has not come and asked, "Let me therefore use that deodorant first and then thy antiperspirant shall never falter." (good thing too, because I'm not a fan of sharing armpit residue with anyone, even if it is a prophet. Nasty...) Nor do I feel as though I am about to pull the lid off and use the deodorant for the last time and then perish in mortal agony.

But, the deodorant keeps going and I'm saving a few bucks by not having to buy more. And so that's what I'm grateful for tonight. Deodorant that wastes not nor fails me. It's a good thing.

A Word About Music

So, I love music. I have always loved it. In fact, just the other day, my mom was relating the fact that I responded to music while still in the womb (for serious). Rumor has it that my dad would hum directly onto my mom's swollen belly while she was carrying me, and my little body would just settle right down, relaxing into a quiet calm. Music can definitely still have that effect on me. I love creating it. I love listening to it. It fills a deep emotional and spiritual need for me.

But, my brother appreciates music in a way that I cannot, or do not, understand. He excitedly finds new music and loves to share his passion for this new music with all who are willing to hear it. I admit that I am not always willing. A few weeks ago, we were discussing this disparity between the two of us in how we listen to and/or appreciate music and when he asked me to describe what music I liked to listen to (I think, in response to my comment that he and I seemed to have different tastes in music...), all I could come up with was, "I like acoustic-y stuff. And, oh, I don't know, I know the stuff I like when I hear it."

That was it. I had nothing else to tell him when it came to what kind of music I liked to listen to. So, he challenged me to figure out what I like and learn to articulate it. He recommended a podcast to listen to--that he loves. So, I listened to it. And, believe it or not Big Brother, I have learned a thing or two about my preferences.

This is what I know so far:

1. Songs need to have an appropriate Melody-Percussion ratio. In my world, the songs I tend to like are those in which the Melody is more salient than the Percussion. Percussion has its place (I played in the pit percussion in marching band!), but it should not overpower the melody.

2. The simpler the instrumental accompaniment, the likelier the song is to make it into my shuffle rotation. Put another way, I love songs accompanied by just acoustic guitar....or a regular old piano....etc. The music in some way feels purer and more real to me. Maybe even more sincere.

3. As sort of an adjunct to #2, I shy away from songs that have a million different things going on in the background. For example, there's 2 or 3 synthesizer parts running--all different patterns, different pitch ranges, all running simultaneously on top of a heavy bass beat on beats 2 and 4 and cymbal crashes on beats 1 and 3, with 3 or 4 different backup vocalists running 3 or 4 independent parts all on top of the lead singer who is singing a melody that doesn't readily "go with" the rest of the music. I think I have a hard time finding order and my brain just gets irritated, frustrated, and tired. I don't like it.

4. I do NOT care for songs that involve a section that repeats the same 16 bars over and over while increasing in loudness and intensity, usually with a buildup of percussion as well. This sort of repetition drives me batty and seems like a cop-out for artists. To me, it feels as though the songwriters reach some sort of block and don't know how to add to their song and simply decide to repeat an "interlude" of some kind over and over and over and oVER AND OVER AND OVER. Not a fan.

5. I love harmonizing vocals. GOOD harmonizing vocals. Well-sung harmonizing vocals. Balanced harmonizing vocals. Good harmony can give me chills--but, the good kind.

6. I do not care for shouting vocals. Please, just sing. Don't yell at me.

7. As a whole, I do not like LOUD music--LOUD vocals, LOUD accompaniment, LOUD percussion, LOUD anything. I don't know as I can adequately explain the irritation I feel when my ears are met with an incessant barrage of noise (and yes, LOUD music can count as noise, in my world). But then, there are a lot of LOUD things I don't like. Vacuums, lawn mowers, motorcycles, large trucks, popping balloons. I don't like LOUD. I never have.

So, this is where I'm at for now. I'm working on articulating what it is that I love about the music I love. I must disclose that there are songs I know and love that violate each of these stated preferences, however, these are general rules of thumb for me. If a song does violate one of these "rules" and yet has made it to my list, it is usually because somewhere along the line a friend (or a brother) convinced me just to give it a shot for a few days and lo and behold, it turned out not so bad. With that said, as a whole, these are my preferences. I'll keep working on it.

Can you articulate your music preferences?

p.s. Mike - Bon Iver's Blood Bank was my definite favorite for the podcast (All Songs Considered Best of 2009 (the first half of the year)). Loved it. :-)